Post by Dawn Rodriguez on Jun 17, 2014 20:43:24 GMT -6
Im sorry its been so long since I wrote. I needed to get a new journal and find time to actually write in it. I have a busy day today but I figured while Oz is sleeping I can get to write a quick something while the coffee brews. Bare with me, as I said, coffee is still brewing.
Ok so things are hectic as of late. Everything seemed to be going so smoothly and then all of a sudden it feels like things are flipping around. First, we have this M.C.?, I dont even know if that is what they are. I can't find much of anything about them, and they are after us. I don't know who they are gunning for but a few things I have found seems like it might be me and they are going after the club to get to me. I could be wrong and just be paranoid but with the recent events at Leather and Lace, I have to keep my guard up. Luey Is taking care of the situation really fucking well. Damion would be proud. I am worried though. I know he didnt want that chair, I just hope the lawyers figure something out soon.
I have been taking care of both the family in New York and the club here like I always do, but I feel like I am slacking a little lately. In all honesty, I havent screwed up in anyway or anything like that, I just.. Ok. I met this guy, Oz, I mentioned him before. At first I thought it was just going to be some fling one night thing or whatever. At the most some casual bullshit. We meet up, screw and go our seperate way. It didn't end up like that. I am so used to living and breathing the club and my work, I am just not used to this, but it is so much fun. I can't remember the last time I actual felt good. At peace. I feel that when I am with him and I let everything else go for a while. That idea scares me. I'm not ready to get attached but here I am with an old man. Yeah. I am actually with him. Its fucking crazy. In all honesty I think we have only went one day without seeing each other since we met, and that was Father's day and only because I was in New York. I didnt tell anyone where I was going. Mostly because I wanted to get in and out of Brooklyn without running into anyone. I went to my fathers grave. It was nice. I spent a few hours talking to him about everything going on and hopped a place home. Its funny, I hated him because of what he was when he was alive and look at me.. and I find myself loving him more now then I ever did growing up... Anyway, back to this guy. I DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT HIM.. and yet, I like being around him.. alot. Its new to me. It has been years. Im keeping my wall up though. I can't let him in. I can't let anyone else in. Especially now. Shit is to dangerous. Luey wants me to stay low for a while. He wants me to go up to my house and stay there where no one will no where I am. He said for like two three days. I was debating on wether or not to ask Oz to come or go alone. I am supposed to head up there tomorrow afternoon. He finds out if he has a job or not tomorrow. I can use that as an excuse. Im not sure if I am ready to show me my house. Hell, NO ONE has seen it but me. Ill figure all this shit out.
We really need more bodies for the club local. We have the back up of so many, but when it comes to something that happens suddenly, we could possibly be outnumbered. I have Luey calling in the troops, seeing who can come, and we both are looking for new prospects. The hangarounds we are used to though, they just dont have what it takes. Oz was made a prospect. We will see how he does.
Ok so things are hectic as of late. Everything seemed to be going so smoothly and then all of a sudden it feels like things are flipping around. First, we have this M.C.?, I dont even know if that is what they are. I can't find much of anything about them, and they are after us. I don't know who they are gunning for but a few things I have found seems like it might be me and they are going after the club to get to me. I could be wrong and just be paranoid but with the recent events at Leather and Lace, I have to keep my guard up. Luey Is taking care of the situation really fucking well. Damion would be proud. I am worried though. I know he didnt want that chair, I just hope the lawyers figure something out soon.
I have been taking care of both the family in New York and the club here like I always do, but I feel like I am slacking a little lately. In all honesty, I havent screwed up in anyway or anything like that, I just.. Ok. I met this guy, Oz, I mentioned him before. At first I thought it was just going to be some fling one night thing or whatever. At the most some casual bullshit. We meet up, screw and go our seperate way. It didn't end up like that. I am so used to living and breathing the club and my work, I am just not used to this, but it is so much fun. I can't remember the last time I actual felt good. At peace. I feel that when I am with him and I let everything else go for a while. That idea scares me. I'm not ready to get attached but here I am with an old man. Yeah. I am actually with him. Its fucking crazy. In all honesty I think we have only went one day without seeing each other since we met, and that was Father's day and only because I was in New York. I didnt tell anyone where I was going. Mostly because I wanted to get in and out of Brooklyn without running into anyone. I went to my fathers grave. It was nice. I spent a few hours talking to him about everything going on and hopped a place home. Its funny, I hated him because of what he was when he was alive and look at me.. and I find myself loving him more now then I ever did growing up... Anyway, back to this guy. I DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT HIM.. and yet, I like being around him.. alot. Its new to me. It has been years. Im keeping my wall up though. I can't let him in. I can't let anyone else in. Especially now. Shit is to dangerous. Luey wants me to stay low for a while. He wants me to go up to my house and stay there where no one will no where I am. He said for like two three days. I was debating on wether or not to ask Oz to come or go alone. I am supposed to head up there tomorrow afternoon. He finds out if he has a job or not tomorrow. I can use that as an excuse. Im not sure if I am ready to show me my house. Hell, NO ONE has seen it but me. Ill figure all this shit out.
We really need more bodies for the club local. We have the back up of so many, but when it comes to something that happens suddenly, we could possibly be outnumbered. I have Luey calling in the troops, seeing who can come, and we both are looking for new prospects. The hangarounds we are used to though, they just dont have what it takes. Oz was made a prospect. We will see how he does.
